Can my astral relaxation have altered my attitude?

I went to Missouri 2 1/2 weeks ago. During this time I vowed 3 things:
1: To relax my stress level from all the crap that work and the crap my mom has been pulling the last few years.
2: To cut back on my medication intake
3: To re-attune my astral abilities, and find my center that I seem to have lost some time ago.

I think I accomplished those 3 things rather well in the short time that I had to do so. The problem lies in that now, that I am back in the full swing of my "Normal", every day life, I seem to have developed, what some would say an "Attitude problem". Kelly would be one of the primary advocates to this statement being a truth.

Let's see why I would have this apparent problem of having an "Attitude problem".

I think some of it may have to do with the fact that while I was relaxing in my mind and realizing how trivial a lot of things i've stressed myself so much about over the last 3 years has been, I also realized how formulaic my life is beginning to become. This is a common problem and thing that happens with a lot of people; especially those in their 30's who have a family to support and a career that they are working on. They're trying to find their place in what we call society.

I happen to be doing just that. I'm 31 years old. Father of 2, happily married for 11 years and have a job that pays me $47k per year. I bought my first house 14 months ago. I now own a new car; which now has a car payment, and am just living smack-dab in the middle of the "Working-Class" lifestyle.

"Lifestyle" is a word I detest, but I digress that for this post, as I can easily go on a 3 hour diatribe about that on another blog post in the future.

So, now that I have established that I am what the government would consider a normal tax-paying citizen of the working world; I am starting to see that my life consists of the same things over and over.

My routine goes something like this: (A reminder that this is not necessarily a bad thing, just my pointing out that while even though it isn't bad, it can get boring from time to time; if nothing else, for lack of variety in such a dynamic world)
- I get up around 5am Monday through Thursday, take a shower, then drive 35 minutes to work.
- Once I arrive at work, I spend the first part of my day reading through e-mails; seeing what corporate bullshit will be thrown my way during the first part of my day.
- I then proceed to do my usual beginning of the day "Manager duties".
- After doing my beginning duties, I focus on doing the projects that are either required of me, or I find projects I feel will benefit my standing in the company as well as increase consumer satisfaction. Doesn't always work, but I do the best I can.
- No need to bore you with the rest of my work day. It goes along the lines of more corporate BS e-mails, and a bunch of other crap I have to do. That's beside the point.
- I always try and get home before my son gets out of school, but it usually doesn't happen, or sometimes i'll get home beforehand.
- I take a nap within 45 minutes of being home because i'm not a morning person, and being thrown so many corporate things wears me out mentally.
- Once I wake up some 2, or 3 hours later. I hang out with my 2 sons by talking with them, sometimes playing games.
- I load up a video game (Lately it's been World of Warcraft). Kelly and I play that together through the majority of the night.
- During my play time of this, I check my Facebook, my Twitter accounts and my blogs. I also do approximately 3 paragraphs a night of a paper/article/blog post I want to write.
- I go to bed around 11:30pm and then the routine starts over again

As I said earlier, this isn't a bad thing, it's just sometimes a little too formulaic for my tastes; as, although I detest changes (Major ones, to be exact) in my life; I do like a slight bit of diversity.

I think this is where a majority of my discontent comes in. I need to find fresher, and more things to do during my day. Not just at work, but at home afterward is well.

It seems every time I do try and do something new; such as taking the family out to a place, things get chaotic because usually my youngest gets irritable and wanting to wander off to places we don't want him to go, and myself or Kelly get very agitated; thus that ruins the good time i'm trying to have with them. It's no ones fault. It is pure happenstance.

I do know, however that I do, and have been getting aggravated that I falling in to this rift of the "Same ol' song and dance". It's a formula, that while not bad, does beg for change.

It reminds me of the movie "Groundhog Day". Bill Murray lives the same day over and over for years. They never explain why, but my take from that movie is that it shows how people take their lives for granite so much and live the same lives over and over every single day that they get out of bed. I do not want to become one of those people, so naturally being the outspoken person that I am, when I sense something going on in my life that I either don't like or something I feel needs a "Shake up", I begin to act distressed and frustrated without warning or reason.

This is not singled out to any one single person, but just the idea of moving a long at on a straight train track is beginning to wear on me. Consequently, I seem to "Blow up" over the stupidest crap, like not being able to set up a new TV immediately after buying it.

I need to add diversity to my life so I am not becoming one of the many mindless "Drones" that I see every single day of my life. I hate those kind of people and would hate to see myself turn into something I hate.

This is more proof, also that I can write my thoughts of what's bothering me, but can't seem to convey it in vocal terms. I really need to work on that. All I can say is the moral of my point here is that even though I act like a "10-year old child" with my snappy attitude, it's not without reason, and I also know that people aren't mind readers, but it would sometimes make it easier if people could read my auras and my body chemistry a little better to know what is bothering me, or, if nothing else, know that I am plagued by something that is going on in my life.

Here's hoping that I do find this "Change" that I am dying to find. Even if it's just a small adjustment, for all I know it could be all I need to remain fresh with my mind.